Letra de Going Through Changes
I'm going through changes I'm going through changesLately I really, feel like I'm rolling Delph for like Philly I feel like I'm losing control of myself, I sincerely Apologize if all that I sound like, is I'm complaining But life keeps on complicating and I'm debatingOn leaving this world, this evening, even my girls Can see I'm grievin', I try and hide it But I can't, why do I act like I'm all high and mighty When inside, I'm dying, I am finally realizing I need help I can't do it by myselfToo weak, 2 weeks I've been having ups and downs Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying Around with the idea of ending the shit right hereI'm hatin' my reflection, I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care? I give a fuck, only thing I fear is Hailie I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her, shitI'm going through changes I'm going through changesI lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon Yeah, dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you Marshall, what happened at you? Can't stop with these pills And you've fallen off with your skills And your own fans are laughin' at youIt become a problem you're too pussy to tackle, get up Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed They say Proof just flipped out, homie just swift out and bustNah, it ain't like Doody to do that He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at, nobody, he fights first But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse Now I'm poppin Vic's, perks and Methadone pills Yeah 'em, tight verse, you killed itFuckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes man And they gon' do whatever I says when, I says it It's in their best interest to protect their investment And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess thenI'm going through changes (Don't know what I'm going through) (But I just keep on going through changes)My friends just can't understand this new me That's understandable man but just think how bananas You'd be, you'd be an animal too, if you were trapped In this fame and caged in it like a zoo And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?I'm startin' to live like a recluse and the truth is Fame startin' to give me an excuse, to be at a all time low I sit alone in my home theater, watchin' the same damn DVD Of the first tour, the last tour, he was still aliveAnd it hurt sore, fast forward, sleepin' pills'll make me feel alright And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night I just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfuckin' right I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward boundAlmost in a coma, yeah, homie, come on, don't look now Daddy, don't you die on me, daddy, better hold your ground Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voiceYeah, baby, hold me down I'm going through changes (Don't know what I'm going through)(But I just keep on going through changes) Wake up in the hospital Full of tubes, plus somehow I'm pullin' through Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a fewFacts 'cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth Shit it just hit me that what if I would notta made it through? I think about the things I would never got to say to you I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too I still love your mother, that'll never change Think about her every day, we just could never get it together Hey, wish there was a better way, for me to say it But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day There are just too many things to explain, when it rains Guess it pours, yes it does, wish there wasn't any pain But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame I ain't pointin' fingers, heaven knows there never been a saint I know it just feels like we just pissed away our history And just today, I looked at your picture, almost hate to say I miss you self consciously, wish it didn't end this way But I just had to get away, don't know why I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm I'm going through changes (Don't know what I'm going through) (But I just keep on going through changes)